HI DUDES!

my blog is -dead- for succha long time so i plan to revive ABIT. hmm..school jus started. n i went to 3e4. Actually chose 3e3, but last min found out that i chose wrongly.. haha. did alot of things during d holidays. went out almost everyday too. n went clubbing too! &working..but not nw. somehow i just sacked d boss xD my working place is damn far! Holland V which is located in buona vista. dammit far okay. have to travel from bedok all d way to holland v and d boss there treated his staff like F. THEY THINK WE GO THERE SELL NASI LEMAK AH. no manners to me siah. heh.

theres a sentence which has been hanging over my mouth these days, i dont know why too?
I GOT IT FROM MY MAMA~~aft school reopen, im tired and sleepy everyday. d reason why is b'cause im used to sleep at around 4-5 in d midnight, & suddenly wants me to change my sleeping time is CANNOT LA ADOEH, ha. just remembered that my D&G light blue perfume is finishing soon gotta buy a new one. its only abt $60 for a small one, ANYONE WANTS TO BUY FOR ME? i will love you if you do but i wont以身相娶。i dont know if its in d correct chinese word. im currently in school's comp lab. cher want us to do chinese news blog. WTH. we have to type chinese for d whole blog! hack..

because of you, im ashame of my life.; 4:48 PM

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knowing that how many zillions years i havent been blogging, so yeah, now a post for you(or me).
few things i wanto update,

currently in perth, located in aus. im right now freezing cold here, its winter time her on june,july & august. so it would be getting colder to colder to minimum of 8degrees. how am i here? i should say..quite bored. malls closes at 5pm(except for thurs & fri), sky darkens at 5pm too. getting early sleeps here cox the sky turns really dark that you thought its alr midnight & you'll head for your bed. so far only when to tumbulgum farm, wildlife park, kings park, flea market, fremantle prison & market, and some of the malls. been working for ma aunt's cafe too. wth, have to wake up as early as 5am in the morning & you will shake. coming back this thurs at the 14th.

found out abt jasmine's death while holidaying, was shock & speechless at first & turns out crying on the phone. its really unbelieveable. couldnt imagine hows ahyi now. hope he's fine & jasmine would rest in peace. & fk those reporters who post her photo on the newspaper headlines. their parents didnt teach them whats respect.

& people is saying why i didnt contact them but only sam. i did tried calling but failed, sam's phone also! i contact him only when he calls me. i only could msg him now.

bought the gifts already, & now ma wallet is empty. but i could say at least ma wallet worth something, bought it here, its a GUESS wallet. its not imitation okay.

wished for clubbings & parties when i get back. i miss everyone. wanted to go back badly.

ive been strong & hanged on for so long.
i'll continue doing so.
i miss ma boy.


because of you, im ashame of my life.; 10:38 AM

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happy new year darlings! it was the most boring new year of ma life. on new year, all ma relatives came to ma house & that night, me & yen when to meet fong & guojie that night. we were like slacking arnd tampines and went home aft that. the second day, we went to georges bar in siglap. it was the same boss as mine in fisherman. but the diff is this is a bar, fisherman is a seafood restaurant. we went gambling that night & i lost about$70+ to someone & sth happen that i cant say.=X third day we went back to the same place again..

im in the comp lab nw. realised that i havent been posting for a long time. didnt go for sch ytd, went halfway the previous day. wanted to quit smoking & ended up sick. quite successful, thou theres some running nose now. once a long time is okay. haha. (i said it myself.) i asked ahfong to come & fetch me aft recess the day before ytd. we actually bought 1kg of crab & decided to cook it in guojie's house. & in the end, his grandma doesnt like the smell of the crab. waste ma money. so we decided to eat it in fisherman. guess what, guojie left the pack of crabs at the 201kopitiam in tamp. we was like wtf, ma crab gonecase.

lol. gotta work tml. i need sticks & tissues.
shouldnt have learn it earlier.d
yearn for clubbing.! its been like a thousanddddddddddddd years we last went in & got crazy.

because of you, im ashame of my life.; 7:46 PM

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didnt update for a long time. so sorry guys. tmls val's day. not interested in relationship so val day is nothing to me. just hope that some horrible creature gave me one be shock that i dont want & i'll be contented. working tml. yesterday went bugis with guojie & xiuzhen. buy clothes, bag & shoes, dig ma wallet till theres left with a hole. quite tired of ma hairstyle, but still i cant change it. gna get ma fake id tml! tml got common test, shittt. did not study. tryna catchup tml. got lotsa photos to upload for. but didnt.. & videos too..

because of you, im ashame of my life.; 4:23 AM

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so tired, still had to go school. tml still have PE, surely kena torture by mr tan. waha. these few days, aft sch, is either slack at mamashop or inter. today went wanyi's house. she bought two small lil cute hamsters. both active but one of them dammit rough. that stupid hamster of hers kept finding fights with the another one & scratched till it bleed. we watched tong hua mong xiang by andy lau. not bad, touching. update some videos, haha. all by guojie, the 'stunts' he did was actually i taught him to do so, those stupid ideas of mine. haha. got work on thurs,fri & sun...hmm

i kept telling maself to quit smoking, but it doesnt work. sometimes temptation & addiction would affect me. i didnt want it either. so regretful..

in eng class, i was there day dreaming & thinking of things while the teacher "talking to herself". i thought of many things. why girls always get sad & cry over guys so much? in ma point, i think its you yourself control your own emotion, you decide how you feel & do. not those fking guys cause it. yeah, they have faults, but girls shouldnt cry or get sad because of them. youre sad, he didnt care. you cry?- none of his business anyway! its just how we think, its like if you kept thinking that -that bastard ditch me here, im all alone, i love him so much, how could he do this to me??- that whatever bastard ditch you, oh so what? no more guys would love you? you are alone?, whatabt your friends?isnt them humans too? you said he did this to you?then you shouldnt love him anymore. actually, this kind of things, he more you think, the more youre sad, the more you cry. whatabt- though he ditch me but i wont give up easily, i will be strong & try ways to win him back. sacrifice anything for love is worth it.- if you want him back, dont need to be shag, hang on tight. or- that fucking short dick guy, ditch me yeah. so what? ditch me ditch me la. i wont lose ma face, i dont believe no other guy would want me. ditch me? big fuck!- get strong. dont let the guy think that you cant live without him. imagine him ditching you & sees you aft sometime you are still that cheerful & active, he'll be shock.

sometimes God want you & your guy to separate its not because of he wanted to break up both of you or anything. its just that he want you to find a better guy, the one who loves you & dotes you more. so you musnt be unhappy instead of being happy & excited. you just have to be waiting for the next guy, you dont know who. its just the matter of time, you just need to get freaking excited.

because of you, im ashame of my life.; 6:44 AM

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didnt work today. ma mum wants me to help her out. so i took off today.just knew that ma big aunt in msia came today. didnt saw her, she was at ma mum's shop. stayed at home for the whole day & ma bill came..burst. thought ma mum would scold fiercely when she came back but she didnt, just scold abit & asked me to give her 50bucks of ma pay for her to pay ma phone bill, $109++.

benchoo is going get me a 18yrs fake id. haha. it cost 50bucks but he asked me not to pay him back. but i wanto. i dont wanna owe him anything more. i dont wanna be the bad guys in people's eyes once more. suddenly having the feeling of going to club. maybe new year..


felt so not in the mood..
but there was not one to see i wanna be crazy & happy.

because of you, im ashame of my life.; 11:36 PM

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bought Dolce & Gabbana light blue perfume(small) for $53.90. ya its ex, but it worth it. no pain no gain. wanna get good products must have sacrifices. go for that because it have a smooth & nice smell. & xiuzhen bought a eye circles & bag cream for $59.90, its damn small container but imported from switz.

went slacking near our sch's mama stall. we played cards. ive never gamble before, its the first time today. & i lost $7, then zhen helped me play & give out $2. lost at first, but won back later & we bought a pack of cig. then the police came & ruin our fun, caught us smoking & confiscated Gabriel's cig. luckily zhen hide it under the chair. we went back to the place aft the police had gone & took it back. waha.

went home, told ma mum ive work tml. & she immediately shouted no way, wth. dont know how to tell yichun tml. she wanted me to study & not work on sch days. she kept objecting about me going for work. she doesnt understand why im so serious about work now though they gave me money. i never been serious abt work before. i felt so happy working there, when theres finally people came & praise me. whenever i took ma pay, the kind of feeling is really up to the sky & what i was thinking is, "wow, the money i had earn for myself.." & everyone there care & concern for me. so i'll rather work than rotting at home, listening to those naggings. but i'll be sure that i wont neglect ma studies. i dont mind being tired or stressed up.. as long im happy..

because of you, im ashame of my life.; 3:49 AM

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